The phrase “ripen into your authentic self” was part of my horoscope from Rob Brezsny this morning and it was one of those aha things that I just love.
I’ve been having a little bit of trouble with a family situation lately. We haven’t heard from our oldest son in over a year and it is bothersome. Luckily with the internet I can keep faint tabs on him, but still. This is the kind of situation that most parents dread and are confounded by. I am no different.
Fortunately, I found a recent blog post he wrote–the sign of life I’ve been wanting. The subject matter is one I am quite uncomfortable with personally. However, it is not a surprising subject. It is consistent with the kind of person he has always been. Which makes his absence from our lives quite understandable. He is being considerate of our feelings as well as being true to himself.
I was pleased to see that he is a fantastic writer. And a person with integrity. His interests are not interests I can share, but I can respect them.
I feel very proud of him. But it is still strange and uncomfortable for me that I cannot just call him and say, awesome blog, tell me more. I have to give him the kind of space that most parents would be uncomfortable with. And I miss him.
It’s hard to know what to do with a relationship of this nature.
But the thing we have in common, and that all people have in common, is the desire and need to be our authentic selves. And for many of us that takes a great deal of time. Some people never accomplish authenticity.
I had to learn to get out of my own way to even begin ripening into my true and authentic self. I think my son had to learn the same thing and over a year ago he made his move.
So here is to all of us finding our true, authentic selves and the peace that it can bring.